LJ (@whatss.my.name.again) — ▪️Passionate about giving others another perspective to consider▪️Travel▪️Writer▪️Fashion student▪️Creative▪️Anti-mediocrity▪️
I had the most chaotic week last week, and it was so completely unnecessary. I was offered a job where I’m interning (literally the words “would you like this job?”Followed by- “I’m so excited, this is going to be amazing”), to then being messed around with 3 separate days I went into the office to trial for it, yet never really getting to trial for it because there was just so much chaos. Well until the third day I was scheduled to trial, where I turned up, to find out that they’d hired someone else who was already working within that role. I’m was totally fine about the job, I wasn’t sure I **actually** wanted it, I’d obviously lose money switching to that income but I’d if gained exactly what my income is missing- industry experience I didn’t have to lie about. The whole week was a rollercoaster of conflicting emotions as I battled with the possibility of committing to being employed, losing the freedom around my current lifestyle to move into a role with a brand I adore, but is seemingly incredibly chaotic and stressed filled. The whole week I fought internally with what I really wanted versus what was the best opportunity for me to take right now. Is just come to such a wonderful place of the ideal work/life balance, and I was ready to give it up for something that MAYBE would be a good choice. The way they treated me during the process though, completely reaffirmed to me why I vowed to never work for somebody else ever again, why I went face out in my advertising to sabotage myself when I didn’t think I could make my own business work. So this week was a rather uncomfortable experience and a reminder of just that, why I chose s3x work, and why I chose it to be the vessel of how I’d find my next move. I’ve never been more motivated to get my designs made and brand launched ❤️
Oh. My. God. I have a story for you guys tomorrow when u work out how to condense it. It’s been a while since I’ve really felt the full force of stigma and male entitlement surrounding the knowledge of my career so I’ve forgotten how extreme it can be, along with how awful it feels. I’ve sheltered myself from the brunt of it lately by really never telling anyone I meet about it and keeping myself occupied with study, and working at a heavily reduced rate. Now I’m back to working like I used to and therefore am a s3x worker more often, increasing the chances of being stigmatised. I’ve been blown away today by incredibly unprofessional and short sighted a horny little man was and thought he may be able to gain something off the knowledge of my choice in career. Unbelievable.
I know not many of you know her personally other than all that’s been posted on the internet. Her family are dealing with her devastating loss, and though there’s nothing we can do to help ease the pain, financially helping out a little (if you can) in their time of need would be appreciated beyond belief ❤️❤️❤️ link is in bio ❤️❤️❤️
Mikki, I’ve been stuck on what to write and what to say about the tragedy of the world losing you. Though we only connected over the past few months, your tragic passing has absolutely filled me with so much grief and heart ache and there’s no real words to explain how heavy my heart feels about such an unfair loss. I’m so grateful that I got to know you, though definitely not as much as I’d hoped and was looking forward to doing so. I was so genuinely excited that we’d be sharing our pattern making and sewing struggles and misadventures together, I was only speaking to my partner the other day about how happy I was you were studying at my campus. I wish that we’d connected properly sooner, though I’ve always thought you were such a beautiful and amazing human from all that I learned about you through your beautiful best friend and following you online over the years. It made me smile so much to find out how excited you were the first time I messaged you. You had such an incredible light and the most beautiful energy that was simply so pure. I’m so sorry you’re gone, I am so sorry you’re friends and family have to miss you everyday, the amount of love shown for you, shows everyone what an absolute amazing and beautiful person you are. Gone far too soon, the world misses you xxxx
I read The Slight Edge recently and if you were like me and kind of feeling stuck, unproductive and procrastination is your top skill, I totally recommend you read it too. Since I’ve read it, I’ve got my health and fitness to a place it hasn’t been in a LONG time, my finances are controlled, I’ve been able to bring a desperately needed sense of life/work balance to my situation, I got an internship I love and I’ve been busy working on my clothing label I’m designing but most importantly, I feel happier than I have in a loooooong time.