Instagram tag childloss

It is always a great gift to hear my son's name. To remember his sweet little fa
It is always a great gift to hear my son's name. To remember his sweet little face. To remember that I will see him again. ⠀ ⠀ This lovely quote is a sweet reminder that you don't have to be afraid to say the name of someone who has passed away. It is always a beautiful gift. ❤️⠀ ⠀ (Repost: @laurelbox)⠀ #candidgrief#mamagrief#whathealsyou#grievingparents#grievingmother#babyloss#childloss#stillbirth#miscarriage#griefshare#bereavedmother#lifeafterloss#lament#spiritualgrowth#grief
16.01.2019 01:13:01
Jumping on the bandwagon with my #10yearchallenge 
Ten years ago I had a 1 year
Jumping on the bandwagon with my #10yearchallenge Ten years ago I had a 1 year old (my 4th child) & was living in a beautiful house we had built. A year after the pic on the left I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. No stress - I figured it was my turn but little did I realise that this was easy compared to what was to come! Despite having major complications and ending up in hospital for 27 days. Missing my children badly! Nothing compares to the heartbreak of one of your children getting diagnosed & nothing can be done to save her! So me 10 years on I’ve been through the most unimaginable hell but I’m still here! I’m still surviving tho some days barely! This challenge to me is one if survival! We should be grateful to be ageing! It’s a privilege denied to many so embrace every damn day of it! Love hard! Be kind! Show compassion! 🙏🏻💜⭐️ * * #ageisjustanumber#challenge#loss#love#breathe#betterwithage#survivor#cancer#fuckcancer#family#childloss#instadaily#instagood#snapchat
16.01.2019 01:10:36
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I’ll play.  2005 vs now (#swipeleft )

Long before #smartphones, back when  I ma
I’ll play. 2005 vs now (#swipeleft ) Long before #smartphones, back when I mastered the #selfie with a #disposablecamera 📷 Between these two pics stands: 💍2 proposals 🥂One #marriage 👨‍👩‍👦‍👦Two #children 🤱🏻30 months of #breastfeeding and the boob height to show for it 👼🏻One #miscarriage 🤰🏻4 total years worth of #tryingtoconceive 🏠5 different homes in two different states 💔One #home lost 💵4 loans #paidoff 💫2 #piercings removed ✍🏼A handful of new #tattoos 💇🏻‍♀️A change from never ever wearing my #hair down, to almost never wearing it up. 💧5 #career changes, last one being my #dreamjob ‼️Probably 80lbs of weight, (not from one pic to the next, but yo-yo’d on and off over the years. 💃🏼A zillion pounds more #selfconfidence ✝️A #faith in #Jesus built up each year with each step of the way. . . . . . . . . . . . . #older wiser #challenge#weightloss#childloss#loss#weightgain
16.01.2019 00:51:55
To sign up and see the details, go to www.hopefloatswellness.org. DM if you have
To sign up and see the details, go to www.hopefloatswellness.org. DM if you have any questions. #childloss#griefinthebody#grief#love#loss#honor#bereavedparents#bereavedmother#hopefloats
16.01.2019 00:36:20
posting another one of him testing out his @loveverybaby center partly because t
posting another one of him testing out his @loveverybaby center partly because this was a cute shot and partly because I totally messed up the grid I created on my feed😂 #catchingmeteorites
15.01.2019 23:49:45
2 weeks from today will be the 1-year “angelversary” for our David. We may share
2 weeks from today will be the 1-year “angelversary” for our David. We may share some things here & there to continue to celebrate his life. Our plans for the week of the anniversary consist of going out of town & attending a church event with some of our mentors of the faith. I look forward to being in a place where I can be encouraged spiritually during this time where I need it most. There’s just something about being in His presence. We know David is already with our Lord, so in a way, it feels like we are spending time with him, too. Please don’t say, “I can’t believe it’s already been a year.” You haven’t had to live the 365 days with the same void in your life so I’m sure your days have flown by. Mine however, have been painful to think back to “last year on this day” and to overcome all of the other things that go along with losing a child. The body changes after stopping pumping. The hormonal overload. The anxiety. It’s been the longest year of my life & I honestly just can’t believe I’m even here 1 year later. 💙👼🏻 #davidsheartjourney#babyloss#childloss#lifeafterloss#angel#slaylikedavid
15.01.2019 23:40:10
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Wie oft habe ich die Leute sagen hören : "Mutter zu sein ist das schönste Gefühl
Wie oft habe ich die Leute sagen hören : "Mutter zu sein ist das schönste Gefühl " Ich hatte immer vor Augen wie es sein wird, das eigene Kind in den Armen halten zu dürfen. Und ja, auch ich durfte vor genau zwei Jahren dieses Gefühl erleben. Nur, dass mein Baby schlief und noch viel zu klein für diese Welt war. Wie ein kleiner Engel, die Nase, die kleinen aber doch perfekt geformten Hände. Sie war so wunderschön. Genau vor zwei Jahren habe ich erleben müssen wie es ist Mama zu werden und dann zu lernen loszulassen und mich wieder zurück ins Leben zu kämpfen. Es passieren die merkwürdigsten Dinge im Leben. Dann auf einmal ändert man sich... Man steht auf und kämpft. Kämpft gegen alles, sich selbst und findet sich neu. Grief reveals. . . #lifeafterloss#sternenmama#stillwerise#lifequotes#ihadamiscarriage#stillbirth#iam1in4#childloss#sternenkind#16012017
15.01.2019 23:25:12
Its the first day in two weeks I’ve seen the sunshine. The clouds are not gone,
Its the first day in two weeks I’ve seen the sunshine. The clouds are not gone, and my heart is still heavy but I can see the sun. There is joy peaking through and just that momentary feeling is reassurance that I will get through this. No matter what pain your are facing, no matter how dark the clouds, the sun will continue fighting to get through. Let it in when you’re able ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ Looking forward to some social plans, some pampering and some much needed sushi . . . #sadness#findingmyselfafterloss#griefcycle#healing#choosehappiness#miscarriage#miscarriageawareness#miscarriagesupport#childloss#childlosssupport#birthloss#frozenembryotransfer#infertility#ivfjourney#familyaftercancer#lifeaftercancer#breastcancer#uncfertility#grief#griefsupport#battlingsadness#mentalhealth#ttccommunity#ttcjourney#ihadcancer#ttcaftermiscarriage#mylove#supportsystem#breastcancer#lifeafterbreastcancer
15.01.2019 23:02:19
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See here I am again, pouring out the pain because it’s the only way I know how t
See here I am again, pouring out the pain because it’s the only way I know how to release the anger in my heart. People say I’m strong, people say they can’t believe how I’m getting through this.... The truth is, I’m not getting through this. In fact I’m going to live with this grief every single day for the rest of my life. You see snippets of my life here, moments of the day, little videos here and there, a smile, a laugh, but you don’t see ME. The Mummy that cries herself to sleep. The Mummy that wakes up in the middle of the night screaming because of reliving ‘that night’ over and over again. The Mummy that sits on the floor in her daughters room holding onto her teddy and blanket so tight, screaming in pain. The Mummy who wonders how she will get through another day knowing she will never see her little girl again. Nothing prepared me for the loss of my daughter, and absolutely nothing prepared me for everyday afterwards too. Everyday is different, everyday is new, but my precious memories I have of Layla is all that remains the same. Photos and videos that will NEVER be enough............................. #laylarosemary#bereavedmother#babyloss#babylosssupport#angelbaby#childloss#5daysold#grief#grieving
15.01.2019 22:12:55
This Sterling silver pendant holds the ashes of someone's Father. I added some b
This Sterling silver pendant holds the ashes of someone's Father. I added some black mica and pink flecks as well. Losing a parent or a loved one is so painful. Being able to hold them close to you is very cathartic (speaking from experience). I hope this piece brings some light into its owner's life ❤ . . . . . . . . . . . . . #sacredlifejewelry#wearyourmemories#alwayswithme#breastfeeding#breastmilkjewelry#fedisbest#doula#midwife#wedding#weddingbouquet#flowers#loss#childloss#petloss#cremationjewelry#memorialjewelry#placentajewelry#fromtheheart#birthstones#sand#vacation#hair#simplelife#mininalist#darlingmovement#smallbusiness#vancouverisland#yyj#victoriabc#makersgottamake
15.01.2019 21:21:34
I'm a pretty stubborn person, and I like to be self-sufficient, but one thing I'
I'm a pretty stubborn person, and I like to be self-sufficient, but one thing I've learned, is when life falls apart after your child dies, you take every offer of help you get. This is not the time to be proud or let your self image get in the way of getting help. I really believe the people around you want to help you, if you will let them. It's hard accepting help, I know. I have this feeling of debt I owe, but I know I can help other people in the future who need it when I can help. So next time someone asks if they can help, say "yes thank you!" Can you do that? . . . . . . . . . #childloss#mothersgrief#livingwithgrief#griefsupportgroup#youarenotalone#letgoofyourpride#communicationmatters#infantloss#grievingmother
15.01.2019 21:07:50
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The First Hour Bead. 
The iconic h
We have a new edition to our European Beads. The First Hour Bead. The iconic hospital baby hat. When giving birth in the hospital there is always that adorable baby hat that is placed on the head of your little on in their first few hours. We now have a bead dedicated to those precious first hours. You can either send in your own baby hat or choose to use the hats that we have in stock for these beads. These beads are a first come first serve bead, as I only have so many hats in stock. If you would like to donate a baby hat to be used in beads for those who do not have a hat, please contact me. http://www.wisebeginnings.com/store/p205/hospital_hat_bead.html . . . . . . . #breastmilkkeepsake#breastmilkjewelry#everlastingkeepsake#breastfeeding#normalizebreastfeeding#handmade#wisekeepsake#placentakeepsake#umbilicalkeepsake#badassbreastfeeder#cremationkeepsake#cremationjewelery#flowerkeepsake#funeralflowers#flowerpendant#teardropkeepsake#preservingmemories#frombouquettojewelry#handcraftkeepsake#driedflowers#lossofapet#childloss#passinglovedones#naturejewelry#breastmilkjewerysale#DNAjewelry#DNApendant#dnakeepsake#dnakeepsakejewelry
15.01.2019 20:33:50
2 weeks until our Texas Retreat! We are so excited for the families God has alre
2 weeks until our Texas Retreat! We are so excited for the families God has already brought together for this retreat! Please join us in praying for this retreat these next few weeks! We do have one spot available! Please private message for more information! https://hopefamilycareministries.org/hope-family-retreats/ #griefsupport#bereaved#yourstorymatters#grief#childloss#infantloss#miscarriage#retreats#familyretreats#bereavementretreats
15.01.2019 20:30:40
I’m OK? (Part 2)
Lately, listening to good music and uplifting talks help me get
I’m OK? (Part 2) Lately, listening to good music and uplifting talks help me get out of my own head, feel peaceful and broaden my perspective again. In fact I had a good week and even fun times with friends last week. Sunday evening, I even struggled with this. I had had a great weekend, in fact I almost felt “normal” or at least adjusted to this new reality. Ian by my side as an angel. Even when I would think of him and miss him, I would feel peace and his nearness as if he would whisper and say things like, “Don’t worry, be happy. I am ok. I am with you.” So what‘s wrong? This is great, right? It is, but I almost felt guilty feeling “normal” in my new normal. Is it not too fast? I feared it meant I was forgetting or something. That fear that comes with the phrase “moving on” (why I chose to say “pressing forward”). I know Ian needs me to be happy, and Lars and that life must continue...Part of me just needs to be still, gaze at his pictures, remember how it was to hold him, hear him and see him in life, and cry because I miss his physical presence. I’m trying to find balance. To feel the feelings, and at the same time be conscious of not giving into despair, and allowing myself to be OK when I feel OK.... And even be happy when I feel happy... as contradictory as that may seem to me. I thought finding joy after such a loss would be impossible, and I certainly didn’t think I’d feel glimpses of happiness, so soon. Knowing it’s God’s design for us to have joy, and turning to Him for my survival helps me feel my son, and shows me continually that “with God all things are possible.” Then you might ask yourself, why didn’t God heal Ian then, if all things are possible? As the mother of Ian, I know it was possible, but God’s purposes are greater that this short life on earth. This was not the beginning of our existence nor is it the end. I also continue to witness the miracles that have come from the life Ian lived on earth and how his love from the other side continues to move mountains.
15.01.2019 20:21:47
I’m OK? (part 1)
When my world is turned upside-down, for whatever reason it may
I’m OK? (part 1) When my world is turned upside-down, for whatever reason it may be, I find myself relearning how to feel “OK” in life again. The thing about having a loved one pass on is it’s a reality I naturally don’t want to get used to. So, when I have felt “OK”, that’s not good enough either. After my rough Monday last week, I talked about feelings and processing with my Richard. This is something we do often, but he said something hard for me to take. It had to do with the permanence of Ian’s physical death. Though I know it’s permanent, I got defensive at his choice of words. I later apologized for my reaction. The next day, I took a second to emotionally and mentally confront those feelings and in every way acknowledge the fact that, Ian, as we knew him, isn’t coming back. Yes, we will see him again one day, but not in this lifetime. Our child is in the grave. This IS our new “normal”. I’m consciously aware of the utility, but also of the danger in grief. It’s necessary to work through it, to feel all that needs to be felt. I also feel the difference between anxiety and despair that can accompany grief and don’t have a function other than to make things harder. Perhaps I’ve been using the wrong word all along. The quote pictured uses the word “mourning”. Again I am learning language that more fully connotes what I am experiencing.
15.01.2019 20:06:34
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15.01.2019 20:00:09
When my son died 2 years ago I was given advice on how to survive his death. Whi
When my son died 2 years ago I was given advice on how to survive his death. While those words of wisdom gave me hope and helped me hang on, nobody prepared me for what came after surviving. Surviving the first year of child loss is like climbing the highest mountain in existence. In the middle of a blizzard. While barefoot. As grenades are being launched at you. When you finally reach the top with your battle wounds, you look around and exhale. You scream from the top until you have no voice left. You have survived the one thing that you thought would, without a doubt, kill you. But what happens after you reach the top? What happens when the fog lifts and the shock wears off? What happens when you realize time hasn’t made the wound disappear? I had music blasting through the house this week when Mr. Garth Brooks began belting, “learning to live again is killing me.” Yes Garth. Yes 🙌 Living... everyone talks about surviving but nobody talks about living. The woman I see in the mirror today is more of a stranger to me now than she has ever been. Pieces of her were lost somewhere during that brutal climb...and now what familiar remnants are left of her I am unsure of? How does she begin to LIVE again? I don’t know. I haven’t figured it out yet. But damnit I am determined to because I cannot just exist in this space any longer. So here I am, hot mess and all, stumbling and falling with hopefully a little bit of grace, trying to sort through the aftermath of the greatest loss life can hand out. It isn’t always going to be pretty but I promise it will always be real. Welcome to Spaces Between You. I hope as I begin to learn how to make footprints along this path someone else can relate. #spacesbetweenyou#childloss
15.01.2019 19:47:38
I think we all have an inherent desire to help others and to feel understood in
I think we all have an inherent desire to help others and to feel understood in our personal struggles but there is not a 'one size fits all' method of healing. . . I think this is partly why we offer condolences and they occasionally come across as insensitive or presumptuous. Or we perceive others suggestions as insensitive or presumptuous. We want to feel better and we want others to feel better, but what worked for us or for someone we know may not be universally helpful. . . Attending the temple seems to be a way for many members of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints to 'feel better,' but for me - for a time - the emotions I felt there were simply too intense. . . Within the last few months I have returned to attending the temple. The time away was invaluable and I remained faithful to return when the time was right. Upon my return, once inside, as I prepared to serve, it was as if I was experiencing the temple and realizing the magnitude of all Heavenly Father's promised blessings for the first time. It was glorious. . . Do me a favor in passing along a message of hope and tag someone you think might appreciate this 😘 . #healing#progressnotperfection#latterdaysaint#temple#griefandloss#understandinggrief#choosehappiness#sharegoodness#trustGod#faithandhope
15.01.2019 19:43:45
In der Nacht vom 10.05 auf den 11.05 sind wir nochmal heim, wir wollten nicht im
In der Nacht vom 10.05 auf den 11.05 sind wir nochmal heim, wir wollten nicht im Krankenhaus auf die Wehen warten, lieber daheim in „Sicherheit“ ... Daheim angekommen sind uns erstmal die ganzen Kindersachen aufgefallen die schon vorbereitet da stehen... Der Trip-Trap am Esstisch, der Kinderwagen im Flur, die Zuschnitte fürs Nähen der Babykleidung, das Beistellbettchen im Schlafzimmer, die Stricksachen für die Babydecke, ... Alles haben wir mitten in der Nacht gleich ins Kinderzimmer gestellt und die Tür geschlossen. Wir konnten es nicht ertragen... In das Zimmer kann ich wieder gehen und auch alles anschauen! Die Wandbilder (auch dieses Wichtelhaus) haben wir sogar irgendwann noch nachträglich angebracht damit sie nicht austrocknen auf dem Papier... Aber die Kommode mit der Kinderkleidung ist wirklich wirklich schwer zu öffnen für mich. Alles liegt bereit, ist gewaschen, nach Größen sortiert und freut sich darauf angezogen zu werden! Das geplante Heimgeoutfit liegt ganz oben auf... Wenn ich diese Schubladen öffne dann fallen alle Mauern, dann fließen nur so die Tränen... Inzwischen wäre Jannik aus den ersten Größen herausgewachsen und wir würden wieder auf die Kinderbasare gehen um für unser Kind neue Kleidung zu kaufen... für diese bekomme ich immer noch e-Mails da ich mich für den Helferpool angemeldet hatte 🙄 Wachsen eure Sternenkinder in euren Gedanken auch weiter? Ich erwische mich oft dabei mich zu fragen wie er jetzt wohl aussehen würde, was er könnte, was für eine Persönlichkeit er schön entwickelt hätte... und irgendwie wird er größer in meinen Gedanken, so ein kleines bisschen! 💚 #jannikliebe#fürimmerinmeinemherzen#mamaliebe#regenbogenfamilie#stillborn#kinderzimmer#childloss#sternenkind#sternenkinder#baby#duwirstsosehrgeliebt#sehnsucht#trauer#grief
15.01.2019 19:42:00
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#Repost@lightandloss with @get_repost ・・・ I’m not who I was before. I don’t know what the future holds for us. You hurt me when you said that. You weren’t there for me like I thought you would be. I don’t know how to tell you what I need. You don’t understand. You can’t understand. I feel isolated. I’m angry with you. Why don’t you grieve like me? I don’t know how to support you. I want to be supported. Don’t forget about me. I don’t know how to be Us anymore. I’m jealous of you. I feel disappointed. Please don’t minimise my loss. Please don’t pretend this didn’t happen. . 🙋‍♀️ Hands up if you’ve ever said or felt like saying one of these things to someone in your life. A colleague, friend, family member, partner. Loss changes us and loss changes our relationships. It sucks and it’s hard. You’re not alone. . Join me and Jenn on @loeys.hugs tonight at 8pm London time for an Insta Live all about our upcoming event and a supportive discussion on pregnancy loss and relationships. ❤️ 12 PM PST AND 3PM EST
15.01.2019 18:57:52
Each of our items in The Stay Strong Mom box come from moms and families who hav
Each of our items in The Stay Strong Mom box come from moms and families who have experienced loss. Here is the story of Rachel, one of the founders of Mad Goat Coffee, found in The Stay Strong Mom box: Rachel and her husband lost their son Clive in 2015 when he was 5 weeks old and in 2016, also said goodbye to their daughter Winnie in 2016, who passed away at 9 days old. Rachel has been through tremendous loss and she and her husband worked hard to raise money to start a family through adoption through their coffee shop. Rachel is now the adoptive mother of a beautiful daughter named Coralie and she has provided a Mexican coffee with mild notes of citrus, dark chocolate, toffee, and toasted nuts to give mamas that strong boost they need in the morning. Find her @madgoatcoffee . . . . #motherhood#lossmom#rainbowbaby#momlife#thestaystrongmom#mom#baby#toddler#smallbusiness#motherhoodrising#storytellingmama#motherhoodinspired#myhonestmotherhood#momentsinmotherhood#motherhoodintheraw#pregnancy#pregnancyloss#childloss#birthstory#postpartumdepression#pdd#mommystatus#toddlerhood
15.01.2019 18:47:15
Every day was different... I've learnt so much from our little fighter. Remember
Every day was different... I've learnt so much from our little fighter. Remembering Kiyan💕💕 #neonataldeath#nicubaby#babyloss#childloss#grief#babyboy#nicubabyboy#lifeafterloss#reminiscing
15.01.2019 18:22:43
My New York acting teacher taught us that the secret of acting is "listening." T
My New York acting teacher taught us that the secret of acting is "listening." That sounded way too easy to me. Everybody listens! But after I thought about it, I realized that when some people were talking to me, I was already forming my response. That's not listening. Isn't it interesting that the word, "listen" has the same letters as the word, "silent." So, how do we listen? Silence your mind of every automatic reply; listen with the ears of your heart; and when your partner is finished, respond from the center of yourself. #momblogger#momblog#motherhood#childloss#lossofalovedone#lossofachild#grief#griefsupport#woundedmothers#infertilityjourney#familytravel#homeschool#ryanshines#myscars#familyiseverything#familyfirst#familyforever#lovemyfam#habitandhome#mytinytribe#handmadejewelry #burnsurvivor#firefighter#scarsarebeautiful#burnvictim#fire#burncommunity
15.01.2019 17:37:48
Don't ever feel you have to justify your loss. Or your GRIEF! .
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Don't ever feel you have to justify your loss. Or your GRIEF! . . . YOUR FEELINGS are your feelings and they are yours! No one else’s! Who are the grief police? To say it isn’t a loss because of age? Of time? Of status? Of title? No no no! That’s not ok! Loss is loss just like love is love! You love who you love and you process your loss as you want to process your loss! And as a disclaimer, you can show every person in real life or on social media that you are grieving but if you aren’t really grieving.. it doesn’t really serve a purpose, so always be true to yourself! Your grief journey is for you not anyone else! Because until you are good to you, you can’t show up for anyone else! Sending all my love and grace! 💛🙏🏻 Don’t for get your loss is your loss!
15.01.2019 16:54:18
The mug behind the computer screen 👩🏼‍💻 • My name is Bethan, I am 25 years old a
The mug behind the computer screen 👩🏼‍💻 • My name is Bethan, I am 25 years old and a Veterinary Nurse Assistant. I am Sophia’s Mummy. Before Sophia died, I was a carefree, happy, in love and a joyfully pregnant young woman. After Sophia died, I became an isolated, sad eyed and troubled young woman who lost her love, her home and every little bit of joy from my life. I have grown up in a small village in Lincolnshire where everyone knows everyone, I often feel like I don’t have a name anymore I’m the one ‘who had a stillborn’. They think I don’t hear them say this, but I do. I can see it on their faces. I have thrown myself into my work, sometimes working 45 hour weeks just to avoid going home to an empty house just to sit and think about everything. I often put on a smile for others, so they don’t feel bought down by me. I’m learning to smile again and it’s a tough thing to learn, but I’m trying and I’m a determined little soul because after all - I am Surviving for Sophia 💪🏽👊🏽 #survivingforsophia#stillborn#stillbornstillloved#stillbornbaby#sandscharity#achingarmsuk#babylosssupport#babylossawareness#babyloss#childloss
15.01.2019 16:49:21
The grief is almost overwhelming today, it’s at the point where all I want to do
The grief is almost overwhelming today, it’s at the point where all I want to do is crawl back into bed and not do anything. But I have to show up for my girls. I have to be present so they know that they haven’t lost their mother. When the grief is this bad is when I turn to Jesus and rely on Him to keep me from sinking. But what I wouldn’t give to be back in that room with her.
15.01.2019 16:23:59
I recently had the idea to start a blog. A blog to help anyone who has suffered
I recently had the idea to start a blog. A blog to help anyone who has suffered the loss of a baby. Now, I’m pretty clueless when it comes to blogging so whilst I learn how to use one I will use instagram as support to other parents {bear with me whilst I learn, this could be a long wait - I have never been the most technical minded👩🏼‍💻} • Sophia has been gone for over a year now, the longest - yet quickest, most strangest year of my life. Sophia was born 13 weeks early, I couldn’t wait to hold my daughter in my arms but not this early and not in this way. She was so, so wanted and loved and I find that the cruelest thing of all. It took me to fall pregnant to realise that I was born to be a mother, I have so much love to give 🤱🏼🤰🏼. I have felt every emotion and feeling going this last year, from uncontrollable anger to not being able to see I am crying that hard. Silent sobs. Loud gut wrenching sobs to the point my neighbour came round and asked Sophia’s dad if I was okay. I have never felt grief like it, actual physical pain at losing my baby. _________________________________ I find it unbearable that more babies will be lost, more parents hearts will break - I can raise all the money and awareness I want but it won’t suddenly stop, so how can I help? Support, talking and more support. 🗣🎤 Which is why I have wanted to start a blog and an instagram. So we can support each other, say our children’s names and speak without fear of making others uncomfortable or awkward. I have named my blog and instagram ‘Surviving for Sophia’, because right now, I am doing just that - I am surviving for her. Just like every parent I am doing it for my child. Even getting up in the morning and facing another day, is for her. It always will be. ——————————————————————— Please, please feel free to message me, give me pointers, or any topics you would like me to talk about. Let’s end this silence on stillbirth, everyone else gets to talk about their children, why can’t we? 💫💕 #survivingforsophia#stillbirth#stillborn#stillbornstillborn#sandscharity#babylosssupport#babylossawareness#blogging#childloss#baby#achingarms#achingarmsuk
15.01.2019 16:08:41
Mental health support is vital for parents who are in the midst of trauma. Unfor
Mental health support is vital for parents who are in the midst of trauma. Unfortunately, the current U.S. health care system is not structured to provide mental health care to this group who so desperately needs it. Providing physical care is only part of the equation when it comes to treating parents who have experienced pregnancy loss, the death of a child, or whose children have significant medical challenges. Social, emotional, and mental support are also critical. If you have an experience, positive or negative, with the way your mental/emotional health was addressed while you or your child were in the hospital or under medical care, please comment below. I’d love the hear more about your experience. (Link to Huffington Post article in bio.) . . . . @huffpost#nicu#trauma#pregnancyloss#miscarriage#stillbirth#ptsd#depression#mentalhealth#childloss
15.01.2019 15:41:55
Day 15 - Favorite Loss IG Accounts
After our loss I spent hours searching out Fa
Day 15 - Favorite Loss IG Accounts After our loss I spent hours searching out Facebook groups, pages of inspiration, and accounts of other Mama's like me that I could follow and learn from. I needed to feel less alone. I needed to know survival is possible. And one day maybe even the ability to thrive. Now my IG Feed is filled with other Mama's like me and many little kids currently fighting their battles. Here is a small list of my favorites. @meeteverlyjo@aliceandafter@samanthapierson@stayingfitformyls These women all give me hope for a future that doesn't feel so dark. 💜💕🐞 . . . . . #everydayisforeva#LAPnewyearchallenge2019#childloss#childlossawareness#forever2#foreverfamily#angelmama#lossmom#lovewithnowheretogo#mamagrief#forevermom#illholdyouinmyheart#untilicanholdyouinheaven
15.01.2019 15:40:04
💙💙💙💙💙 Reposted from @borlandgroover -  Colon cancer is highly preventable when f
💙💙💙💙💙 Reposted from @borlandgroover - Colon cancer is highly preventable when found early! Join us on 3.31.19 at our annual #5k to raise #coloncancerawareness Register to walk or run at MarchtoGetScreened.com Funds raised go to a financial assistance program for those diagnosed with #coloncancer#giving#givingtuesday#cancer#fundraiser#fundraising#mtgs5k#survivor#tuesday@coxmediagroup#philamato#4patients#jacksonville . . . . . #felitaslove#grief#griefsupport#griefjourney#griefisreal#lifeafterdeath#grievingdaughter#grievingson#grievingchild#childloss#miscarriage#grievingmother#grievingfather#widow#widower#coloncancerawareness#cancersucks
15.01.2019 15:35:44
In my monthly email letter, I’m sharing about control and how I’ve used it for c
In my monthly email letter, I’m sharing about control and how I’ve used it for coping during trauma and grief—from focusing on brushing my teeth in the hospital to folding my clothes this week. There’s a printable each month-- this month is this lovely poem!-- and downloadable and printable cards when you sign up. Want to get the email? You can join the list via the freebie link in my bio. . . #mamagrief#grief#infantloss#griefmama#treesandflowers#childloss#hopemommies#hopewriters#hope#miscarriage#rainbowbaby#whathealsyou#creativegrief#createbelievegrieve#faithingrief#griefsupport#captureyourgrief#createbelievegrieve
15.01.2019 15:18:12
#repost • @ladywhalen 
Do you want to know what's totally unfair about grief? (B
#repost@ladywhalen Do you want to know what's totally unfair about grief? (Besides the fact that someone you love is dead.) . You have to be the grief sherpa. . Not only are you embarking on a journey you didn't ask to take, but you have to lead the way for everyone in your life who is trying to love and support you. . There are those who will question why you need to go on this journey in the first place. They will act as if your grief is a choice. . There are others who will stay behind and wait for you to return--never knowing that you can't ever really go back. . Then there are those who will join you--some reluctantly and some eagerly. They want to help make the journey easier, but they don't always know how. . Your grief is the burden upon your back. Others will do things to lighten the load, but no one will ever be able to carry it for you. . In fact, you will not just have to carry your own baggage--you might end up helping to carry everyone else's. . You are grateful for companionship but deep down you know they can leave at any time and you will have to keep going. . You are the one who has to go first even when you have no idea where you're going or what lies ahead. . And that is why you are so exhausted. . #grief#grieving#griefsherpa#pregnancyandinfantloss#stillbirth#miscarriage#infantloss#childloss#babyloss#bereavedmother#bereavedparents#bereavedfather#grievingparents#griefjourney
15.01.2019 15:09:50
Is this year already starting to weigh heavy on you? Don’t let it! There’s so mu
Is this year already starting to weigh heavy on you? Don’t let it! There’s so much for you to do. We’re counting on you!#SunshineandDaniel#Motherhood#Repurposed#graceformothers#SilentWomensClub#SWC#OurLoveSpeaks#SilentNoMore#LoveOutLoud#Gratitude#Joy#ChildLoss#dreaming#Hope#NotBarren
15.01.2019 14:47:23
Is this year already starting to weigh heavy on you? Don’t let it! There’s so mu
Is this year already starting to weigh heavy on you? Don’t let it! There’s so much for you to do. We’re counting on you! #SunshineandDaniel#Motherhood#Repurposed#graceformothers#SilentWomensClub#SWC#OurLoveSpeaks#SilentNoMore#LoveOutLoud#Gratitude#Joy#ChildLoss#dreaming#Hope#NotBarren
15.01.2019 14:45:35
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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ TRUTH and APOLOGIES // 🌌 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I have just started a new job - a maternity leave cover of all things. The healthy mum to be is 6 weeks from her due date. She doesn't know what the last 6 weeks of my life have involved. She doesn't know my precious boys name or that I am broken on the inside. I give her sympathy and support while she shares every "pain" of her pregnancy. Her diet restrictions and clothing problems. I politely nod and even laugh with her. I wish I could tell her the truth, the reality of my truth, but I can't. I'm just not there yet. And for this my sweet Charlie boy, I am sorry. I love you and I am so proud of you. I want to tell the world about you. And someday I will. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I'm just not there yet.
15.01.2019 14:17:28
Missing Brandon a lot these last few days. I miss him every single day, but some
Missing Brandon a lot these last few days. I miss him every single day, but some days it's hard to get up out of bed and continue living this life. The last few days have been a huge struggle. Several trips to the bathroom at work while I silently broke down in the stall so I could pull myself together and keep moving forward. At least one full on sob session in the shower. If I'm honest with you I cry at least once every single day. Maybe at some point in the future I'll have days when I don't, but for now, it's part of my grief and how I manage to keep going. The world didn't stop turning that day, even though my world came to a halt, so I must find a way to continue living. It's what he would want. It's what my friends and family expect. And it's what others need to see. It's possible to survive losing your child. It's not easy, it's not what I want. I hate this life most days. But it is possible. . . . #grievingmoms#grievingmom#grievingparents#grief#bereavedparents#losingachild#lossofachild#childloss#suicide#suicidelosssurvivor#suicidesurvivor#pleasestay#youreawesome#youareimportant#youvedonesomuchalready#youmatter#youareworthit#youareworthy#youareloved#yourstoryisntoveryet#tryagain#stayuntiltomorrow@livingboss13
15.01.2019 13:37:56
Allow your storms to be someone else's rainbow. When the storms are raging, stan
Allow your storms to be someone else's rainbow. When the storms are raging, stand secure in God's grace and mercy and know that you are covered. 💙 #felitaslove#grief#griefsupport#griefjourney#griefisreal#lifeafterdeath#grievingdaughter#grievingson#grievingchild#childloss#miscarriage#grievingmother#grievingfather#widow#widower#coloncancerawareness#cancersucks
15.01.2019 13:06:21
It happened on a Saturday.
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It happened on a Saturday. • Contractions had started days before and, after visiting the doctor, it appeared she was on her way. • Early that morning we headed off to the hospital and settled in to wait to meet this precious little one. A gift to us all. • Labor didn’t come quickly, nor was it easy. Moments of doubt and uncertainty, of low blood pressure and potential emergency surgery filled our day. • My body rebelled at the idea of birth, longing to keep her safe inside. Maybe it knew the moment she drew her first breath, the countdown would begin to tick toward her last. • I remember the pain. The pain of being induced. The pain as contractions slowly wracked my weary body. The pain of waiting. • Day slid into evening as a pain-filled injection finally brought relief. Tension left my body and we settled in for the long night ahead. • Only she had a different idea. Soon after my body relaxed she began to work her way into this world. Early, so much earlier than we expected. • But then came that glorious moment when her cry pierced the room and love and joy filled the space pain once held as she nestled safe in my arms. • Is that what our entrance to heaven will be like? Life on this side with pain and sorrow, loss and grief, heartache and brokenness. We wait and wonder and worry . . . will hope arrive? • And then the moment bursts forth as we step into heaven and love and joy and an eternity of peace takes the space pain once held. Tears dry as ashes are replaced with glorious splendor and our eyes finally rest on Jesus. • My eyes will also search for my brown haired, hazel-eyed little girl who left us far earlier than expected. Whose life, and death, changed me forever for the good, even as joy and sorrow dance together while I wait to see her again. • But today, today on her nineteenth birthday I celebrate her life —her giggles and exuberance, her love and compassion, the joy of those five years we did have with her. • Happy Birthday, sweet Emma. I love you bigger than the time and space that separates us. 💜 • #lifeinthemiddle#hope#birthday#love#motherdaughter#childloss#lifeafterloss#choosejoy#life#writerlife#happybirthday
15.01.2019 13:00:45
If you are up and bored go grab a book to read 😊 one thing i want to promise you
If you are up and bored go grab a book to read 😊 one thing i want to promise you is that no one has ever wrote a realer book than I have and if you haven’t read any of my books yet you can still catch up before the 4th one get them on iTunes, Amazon, google play, kobo and any other ebook stores ☺️🗣🗣 #bookstagram#bookwriting#author#realstories#life#childloss#abuse#marriage#writersofinstagram#buy#reading#readingnook#amazon#itunes#ebook#kobo#stories#journey#power#struggle#followforfollowback#likeforlikes
15.01.2019 12:56:55
It happens to parents of child loss every day all over again. Every day they wak
It happens to parents of child loss every day all over again. Every day they wake up and have to face another day without one of their children. And, the hole in the heart never, everyone grows smaller. #yourenotalone#hopesseed#infantloss#childloss#rainbowbaby
15.01.2019 12:48:55
I miss u sleeping on me so much I miss hearing your little heart beat I miss bei
I miss u sleeping on me so much I miss hearing your little heart beat I miss being your mom these past 7 months have been the worse days of my life and I have so many more to live without u and idk how I’m suppose to #imissmysonshine#ripjjthesuperhero#childloss#forever8#chdsucks#imissmyson
15.01.2019 12:09:52
Memorial Stone 
Find the link to our shop on our profile page. 
Find us on Etsy
Memorial Stone Find the link to our shop on our profile page. Find us on Etsy Wordseasesome1 #childloss#miscarriageawareness#gardenstone
15.01.2019 12:05:33
#lapnewyearchallenge2019 Day 15: favorite loss IG accounts 
@amyalied picked @sw
#lapnewyearchallenge2019 Day 15: favorite loss IG accounts @amyalied picked @sweetgraceministries. “Their account offers great support to grieving parents. Sometimes something they shared is exactly what I needed to hear that day. “ . . @inspiredbyezra chose @ginnylimer “In the early days after losing Ezra I searched on social media for other loss mommas. One of the first moms I found was Ginny. I love how she has a passion for her son Cullin and for grieving siblings!” #infantloss#lifeafterloss#sids#miscarriage#stillborn#neonatalloss#childloss
15.01.2019 11:02:16
♥ Het grote geheim en verdriet.♥ In Nederland eindigen één op de zeven zwangersc
♥ Het grote geheim en verdriet.♥ In Nederland eindigen één op de zeven zwangerschappen in een abortus. Dit komt neer op zo’n 30.000 beëindigingen van een zwangerschap per jaar. Het beëindigen van een zwangerschap kan gaan om een medische reden maar ook omdat je als vrouw denkt dat er op dat moment geen plek is voor een kindje in jouw leven. Het is een keuze die je maakt vanuit je hoofd en niet vanuit je hart. Niemand kan jou vertellen wat je moet doen en er is geen juiste keuze. ♥ Vanuit een gevoel van schaamte en schuld durf je dit vaak niet met je omgeving te bespreken wat het er voor jou niet makkelijker op maakt want ingrijpende gebeurtenissen wil je graag over praten en niet voor jezelf houden. Je bent bang om door je omgeving veroordeelt te worden, mensen staan al snel met hun oordeel klaar en als je het zelf niet hebt meegemaakt of voor deze keuze hebt gestaan dan kan je je ook niet voorstellen wat het is om in deze situatie te zitten en een keuze te maken. ♥ Er komen regelmatig vrouwen bij mij in mijn praktijk die voor deze keuze hebben gestaan en een keuze hebben gemaakt. Na de beëindiging van de zwangerschap lopen vaak vast in hun leven en hebben veel fysieke klachten omdat ze er niet over kunnen praten en ze zo alleen blijven met hun gevoelens van verdriet, gemis, schuld en schaamte. Het is zo makkelijk om te zeggen ‘het is toch jouw eigen schuld? Want je hebt toch zelf de keus gemaakt? Maar zo werkt het in de praktijk niet. Veel vrouwen blijven vaak met deze emoties en klachten achter en hebben geen idee waar ze met hun verhaal en problemen naartoe kunnen. ♥ Herken jij je in bovenstaand verhaal en wil je wel hulp zoeken maar durf je geen hulp te zoeken? Ik bied je een geheel vrijblijvend telefonisch gesprek aan van een half uur, waarin jij jouw verhaal kunt doen en waarin je twee handvatten krijgt met wat jij kunt doen om je leven na een abortus weer op te pakken. Stuur me een dm als je belangstelling hebt. ♥ ♥
15.01.2019 10:21:18
That amazing smile, it lit up rooms and melted hearts. On January 21st it’ll be
That amazing smile, it lit up rooms and melted hearts. On January 21st it’ll be two surreal years since our beautiful boy Joshua last beamed his magical smile upon us. . . In the past some societies encouraged parents to not speak of their lost child, to live life as though outwardly their child never existed. I couldn’t imagine the internal destruction this caused loving parents, or the exhaustion having to fake your way through life pretending you’ve been untouched be your own heart breaking . . . A celebration of life shouldn’t be restricted to births and funerals, our children continue to live within our hearts, minds, memories and within our daily way of life. So, how do we honour our child on their ‘Angelversary’? . . Please share your experiences below, do you doing anything special on that day, how have you honoured your loved one on their Angelversary? #joshua#loveyoutothemoonandback#foreveramother#love#childhoodcancerawareness#griefsupport#grief#childloss
15.01.2019 09:43:19
When you lose a husband you become a widow. 
When you lose a wife you become a w
When you lose a husband you become a widow. When you lose a wife you become a widower. If a child looses its parents it becomes a orphan. So when we loose a child, what do we become? When a piece of our heart is gone and can never be replaced . Vilomah it means against the natural order, it is what I am, what so many of us are. This word is not in the English dictionary, lets change it so we have a name to represent the worst pain that any parent can go through. #vilomah#giveusaname#babyloss#misscarriage#stillbirth#loss#grief#heartbreak#childloss
15.01.2019 08:37:57
Life is not fair. 
My mother always said life was not fair. Every time things wo
Life is not fair. My mother always said life was not fair. Every time things would not go my way, she would remind me. It was an easy bandaid to stamp over the problem and move on. That saying has now taken over my life. I have spent most of my life being what I thought was a decent person. I have had my faults. But I try to be kind to everyone. So why is it, I woke to the most horrific tragedy. Its nit fair. Why me...? I know logically, this is the bargaining stage of grief... But mentally, my mind flocks to all I have done wrong, that may have caused me to lose my child... I am sure there have been times I should have been nicer to my family. That young adolescent shop lifting phase. My young adult use of some not so legal substances.. What was the last pin in my karma doll that would bring such a fate... Life is not fair. Losing Aiden, was not fair. #AidensHeroes#aidensmom#griefjourney#thefaceofgrief#writtingtherapy#bereavedparent#motherslove#momgrief#mothersgrief#childloss#lifeisnotfair#grievingachild#grief#foreverthree#death#passingon#grievingachild#Iloveyoutothemoonandback
15.01.2019 07:54:23
SEPSIS mentioned again on TV today with an interview with Harry & Sandra Redknep
SEPSIS mentioned again on TV today with an interview with Harry & Sandra Redknepp ... only briefly but great Sandra shared her illness ... from a previous kidney infection she thought she was over & then fell really poorly ... luckily paramedics spotted signs of sepsis & she was rushed & treated in hospital & recovered. This happened before celebrity jungle! Amazing when people survive truly but I do wish selfishly each time ... I wish Dylan survived better still I wish we never went through this hell ... A headache will never be just a headache again , a mild illness will never be just that again in our home for us deep inside we will go back to all of our loss & worry inside our heads everytime. Don’t end up like us BE SEPSIS Aware. Love forever Dylan’s mum 💙💙💙💙#dylansarmy 💙💙💙💙💙#health#childloss#sepsisawareness#sepsis@gmb@itv
15.01.2019 07:48:30
"The photo is of my son Brandon, about to jump into a fountain at Oklahoma State
"The photo is of my son Brandon, about to jump into a fountain at Oklahoma State University, his school and howling at the moon to wish one of his best friends a happy birthday. He was such a nut. Brandon passed away on November 12, 2016, leaving his then 19 year old brother Blaine behind. Blaine got a tattoo of his brother about to jump into the OSU fountain. They were the best of friends, and now his brother will always be with him." @sarah.cavazos
15.01.2019 06:34:18
Super Hero’s Exists!...
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I’ve never been a big fan of marvel
Super Hero’s Exists!... ——————————————————— I’ve never been a big fan of marvel comic books, as always find them a bit farfetched, however I do quite like the idea of having super powers and often say my Anxiety has become my own kind of super power, as it’s pushed me out of my comfort zone and projected me towards a purpose... (which is something I believe everybody needs to find inner peace.) . I actually think it should be mandatory in schools to do humanitarian work as the feeling you get from ‘paying it forward’ is like no other feeling and could probably dissolve most peoples anxieties, just through carrying out simple acts of kindness and boosting their confidence and self worth. . Yesterday I had the chance of meeting a real life super hero - Dani Wilson Naqvi (She’s in the second pic as she was the person holding the camera.) She doesn’t wear a jazzy cape but she is however saving people all over the world. . When Dani invited me to talk all things mental health with one of her clients Kanchan @unapologeticallykk I jumped at the chance! . However I found more value from this encounter once the interview had ended, as I spent a short while talking to Dani discovering more about her. . A few years ago Dani had adopted a new born baby girl from Pakistan who she named Zahra Beau. However tragically at 4 months old, Zahra passed away in Dubai due to an undetected illness that should have been picked up during a routine check up and mandatory new born screening test. . Dani later leaned that Pakistan (where her daughter was adopted) that the new-born screening, a life saving test, was not available in this country. Motivated by her loss she set up - @thezbfoundation which is now responsible for providing FREE screening to all babies in the country and to date has tested over 20,000 babies. . I know there’s people reading this thinking, well I could never do something that significant... but Dani is no different from you or me. . She did however decide to take action on something she felt extremely passionate about! . How will you define your difference today? . Contact danielle@thezbfoundation.com To find out more or donate.
15.01.2019 05:43:06
Day One// Word •
On a recent trip from Illinois to Massachusetts, I watched *The
Day One// Word • On a recent trip from Illinois to Massachusetts, I watched *The Wife*, a movie about a man who won the Nobel Prize for Literature and the woman who stood next to him. • As I watched their lives meander through love and betrayal bound by secrets and lies, I longed to be inspired but was instead left discouraged, until I heard this: • “True writers do not write to be published. They write because they have something urgent to say.” • While I do dream of publishing again, I need to share the words with which I’ve been entrusted, words of hope forged in the furnace of loss and suffering. • Words that declare God is good even when our circumstances are not. • Words that declare healing is possible as we move through the pain and heartache. • Words that declare death has been defeated and does not have the final say. Jesus does. • I’m grateful for the community at @hopewriters that not only values the weight of words, but encourages us to share those words with others. • Want to join in? Swipe to see the next 11 days of prompts —then write, tag @hopewriters, and share #hopewriterlife.#amwriting#writerlife#lifeinthemiddle#hope#loss#grief#childloss#bereavedmother#choosejoy#writer#writersofinstagram#writerscommunity
15.01.2019 03:45:33
These extra special dolls were delivered today! 🌈♥️ **For those who may not be a
These extra special dolls were delivered today! 🌈♥️ **For those who may not be aware, I include angel babies/children (for free) with any family doll order upon request. I have had three heartbreaking miscarriages myself and it is important to me, if I am creating a family product, to offer a way to include the entire family. ♥️♥️♥️. . . . . . #jensprettypegs#custom#handmade#handpainted#wood#artistsofinstagram#newtoinstagram#dolls#pegdolls#handmadegifts#pegdollfamily#handmadewithlove#custom#lawyerswhopaint#details#oneofakind#family#familyof5#rainbow#rainbowbaby#supportsmallbusiness#miscarriage#childloss#beautifulfamily#miscarriageawareness#miscarriagesupport#pegfamily#angelbaby#angel#artistsoninstagram#newtoetsy
15.01.2019 03:41:55
You can Create Your Own Place in this world because no matter who you are ... We
You can Create Your Own Place in this world because no matter who you are ... We All Need to Hear the Words ... YOU BELONG .. I Never Fit in when it came to the Fitness Industry.. I dont look like anyone else I know .. when I didnt find a place of my own .. I created it for myself and for other Women who Needed to hear the words .. YOU BELONG ... To Every Woman who Feels like you Belong no Where .. Listen to Me .. YOU BELONG, Your Presence Matters and You Were Meant to Be Here 💖😘 #twinmomx2#childloss#rainbowbaby#twingirlmom#twinboymom#momof5#postpartum#pcosweightloss#pcospregnancy#pcosfertilitydiet#postpartumbelly#plussizefitness#pcosfitness#pcostwinmom#hairdresser#makeupartist#momof2girls3boys#largefamilies
15.01.2019 03:26:49
I always love the journey of a painting.  The constant metamorphosis on the canv
I always love the journey of a painting. The constant metamorphosis on the canvass as you submit your self. It’s impossible to express everything. #paintinglayers#childloss#soullove#asheramongstthestars
15.01.2019 03:14:46
But most of all #bebrave 🔥 Brave: To never give up and to know you don’t have a
But most of all #bebrave 🔥 Brave: To never give up and to know you don’t have a limit to how hard you can try. #quotes#nevergiveup#nolimit#tryhard#riptucker#childloss#survivor#forever11 💝
15.01.2019 02:49:10
What I’m meditating on as we embark on this 6-week Transform :20 journey. We’ve
What I’m meditating on as we embark on this 6-week Transform :20 journey. We’ve been given the grace of movement and resources to help us navigate the world of exercising well, and it’s good. Very good. And it’s a mirror—a reflection of what we’re really longing for. Wholeness, perfection, redemption, restoration. Living a physically healthy lifestyle, when looking to Him for ultimate fulfillment, can offer a satisfying glimpse behind the curtain of what we can expect when we’re made new at the second coming of Christ. When He “transforms our lowly bodies to be like His heavenly one.” That—that I’ll sign up for. And while I wait—and something about having a child (really 3, including my miscarriages) already in His presence makes the wait both painfully longer and yet ever more exciting—I’ll continue to move. To stretch. To grow. To lean into the good and hard things of sanctification. Of grief. Of holy lament. Of physical and mental transformation. Knowing that what happens on this earth is both temporary, yet with eternal implications. Its why I’m so drawn to this 6-week Transform :20 journey. Because every moment of the program is intentional. And that’s how I, with my gaze fixed on Heaven, can’t help but live my life. Not perfectly—but intentionally.💙
15.01.2019 02:39:14
Hey! Quick into for those that are new around here!
My name is Markie. I am 28 a
Hey! Quick into for those that are new around here! My name is Markie. I am 28 and I am married to my boo thang of 4.5 years, named Andrew (aka Drew). We have 2 beautiful babies. Urban who is a 2.5 yo, and Everly Jo who would be a little over a year old. I have a personal account, but I started this account the day Everly was born so people could CHOOSE to keep up with her health challenges. When I was 20 weeks prego, Everly was diagnosed with Congenital heart defects. She was born on Nov. 6th 2017, & after a few open heart surgeries she gained her angel wings Dec. 9th, at 5 weeks old. I decided to keep this account going for 2 reasons. #1 to raise awareness for babies born with heart defects. (I have been slacking on this). & #2 to journal my feelings as a loss mom. Our family continues to feel like a reality show for a few reasons. Drew travels for work, so we are all over the place and go on constant adventures, which we love. Urban has a few delays that he is getting therapy for, such as speech and behavioral challenges. We are home study approved and currently trying to grow our fam via ADOPTION! All of this while trying to navigate through our tremendous grief from losing our beautiful baby girl. . Frequently asked questions: •Did Everly pass away during a procedure? No, she was recovering and doing really well. She surprised everyone by having a sudden heart attack and returning home to her Heavenly Father. •What does your husband do for work? He works for a door to door sales company. He only works several months out of the year and we love it. Not all families would like this lifestyle, but we love it! •Why r u adopting and not having more biological children? We plan to have more bio children but both Urban and Everly are C section babies & my doc wants my body to take some more time to heal. We also want to do some genetic testing to make sure our chances of another heart baby is low. Also, we have always wanted to adopt. Drew and I even talked about it while we were dating. . I think I covered most of it. . Any more questions, feel free to ask! #openbook 😊 I love sharing Everly’s story and I love this community social media has given me. ❤️
15.01.2019 02:39:09
Remember our friends  @viaheartproject?! Well they are having a FREE cardiac scr
Remember our friends @viaheartproject?! Well they are having a FREE cardiac screening event for youths (ages 12-25) February 24th in Rancho Cordova ♡ They seek to increase the survival rate from sudden cardiac arrest by AED programs, CPR training and youth heart screenings ♡ ♡ We will be there supporting with a paint station ♡ together we can make a difference and save lives ♡ Please if in the #sacramento check them out and attend ♡ pics repost from our friends and also featured at the event @racetokeepheartsbeating ♡ please make sure to register if planning to attend or volunteer♡ #sadsfoundation#longqtsyndrome#sads#heartwarrior#awareness#heshouldbehere#community#helpingothers#lifeafterloss#childloss#nevergiveup#kindnessrocks#changetheworld#changelives#helping#california#scaaawarenesss#womenrock#getoutside#cprsaveslives#shoutout#viaheartproject
15.01.2019 02:30:11
4 years ago you were vibrant & alive and we had no idea what was to come! I miss
4 years ago you were vibrant & alive and we had no idea what was to come! I miss you so much my beautiful girl! @starstarr I would give anything to hold you one more time! 💜❤️🖤⭐️🌟 #somedaysarejusthard#star#love#missyou#babygirl#grief#childloss#summer#loveinfinity#instadaily
15.01.2019 02:28:59
Today marks a year since my son was born. He looked like his daddy. Most of you
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Today marks a year since my son was born. He looked like his daddy. Most of you don’t know he was alive for awhile. He let out a cry that I’ll never forget. Seeing him move scared me because I knew what was coming but I couldn’t help but be so in love with him. Watching him pass slowly felt like I was dying. Baby boy I just hope you forgive me because I carry the biggest guilt. I fear my choice to keep fighting with your sisters sac being exposed led to us losing you too. It’s something I can’t stop thinking about. I love you Jacob, more than any words can say. #1stBirthday#HappyBirthday#JacobEligah#GautTwins#AngelBabies#AngelMom#GrievingMother#ChildLoss#InfantLoss#TwinLoss#LossMom#IVF#StillBornStillLoved#StillBorn#PPROM#IVFTwins#TwinLossMom#PregnancyLoss#Twins#BabyLoss#StillBirth#Grief#BereavedMother
15.01.2019 01:29:33
Faiths Wings
🐧PROJECT PENGUIN! 🐧

Sponsor a penguin in your angels memory for $5
Faiths Wings 🐧PROJECT PENGUIN! 🐧 Sponsor a penguin in your angels memory for $5.00 Penguin rocks will be hand painted and will include a note from each sponsor and donated to the Angel Babies hospital kits for the month of march for babies gone to soon in honor of our daughters 1st birthday and in memory of your angel Each penguin donated towards the kits will have a card that reads "This penguin was donated in memory of ______ who left our world on _____ (Uplifting message/quote to mother optional)" This is a great way to help other angel moms and honor your angels. It lets them know they are not alone all while helping to give them something special to hold thats uplifting from one angel mom to another To get involved message me or fill out the form below! https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSe0VWq7QsRvJhePKjpArWkIcz70MKxfbmZQTaoDkg9HbsIHsQ/viewform #angelmom#angeldad#pregnancyloss#infantloss#childloss#missedmiscarriage#miscarriage#stillbirth#pregnancyandinfantlossawareness#weremember#neverforget#breakthesilence#pregnancyandinfantlossawareness#iam1in4#pregnancylossawareness#sponsor#greatcause
15.01.2019 01:11:23
Feeling emotional today about my little man. Ina couple of weeks he will be 16;
Feeling emotional today about my little man. Ina couple of weeks he will be 16; all those hopes and dreams lost 😢💕
14.01.2019 23:20:16
Timehop is tricky this time of year. A week after Eli’s funeral, we got the phot
Timehop is tricky this time of year. A week after Eli’s funeral, we got the photos from the photographer that came to the hospital once we knew Eli wouldn’t be coming home. I am SO incredibly grateful for the photos we have of him. But I cried through almost the whole shoot. • Another amazing organization to support is “Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep” (or NILMDTS). Photographers donate their talents and time to photograph terminal patients, free of charge. It was a bit of a blur at the time but I can’t even express my gratitude. I am going to go track down that photographer right now and send her a thank you note. • • • #childloss#infantloss#nowilaymedowntosleep#nilmdts#momofthree#firstborn#missingmybaby
14.01.2019 23:00:09
That first moment. You never forget it. It’s engraved in your heart forever. But
That first moment. You never forget it. It’s engraved in your heart forever. But holding your baby for the first time takes on a new meaning when you’re a preemie parent. …. The constant beeps and alarms hum through the dimly lit room. Wires, tubes, and monitors are being juggled between half a dozen nurses. In the middle of it all is a tiny, fragile baby, born too soon. A baby who shouldn’t be alive. …. I never got that dream moment shortly after birth--the picture you see so often with a baby being placed in the mother’s arms. Nope. Not me. My children were born too early, more than 17 weeks premature. In the chaos of a terrifying delivery, my babies were whisked off to the NICU before I even realized they were alive. …. I didn’t get to hold my daughter, our ‪lone survivor‬, until she was one week old. And it was close to two weeks until I held my son. It felt like an eternity, but the wait was well worth it. In this video, I held two of my children for the first time together, nearly six weeks after they were born. …. As the team of nurses carefully moved wires, I sat in a special chair, tears welling up in my eyes. Excitement, fear and anxiety consumed me. I watched as the nurses slowly unhooked the chords and brought my one pound babies toward me. One at a time, they gently placed them on my chest and worked quickly to reattach every wire and tube. As they covered my children up with a blanket, they leaned me back in the chair, reminding me not to move. Any sudden movement could cause a significant emergency. …. Reality sank in as I was overcome with emotion. I was finally holding my children, their skin touching mine for the first time outside of the womb. The wires and tubes disappeared as I closed my eyes, the sounds of the machines and alarms pushed out of my mind. I finally felt like a mother. …. You never forget the first time that you held your child. It may not have been exactly how you planned, but for preemie parents, it’s a magical feeling...picture perfect in every way. #preemie#micropreemie#nicu#nicugrad#nicubaby#22weeker#triplets#survivingtriplet#childloss
14.01.2019 22:38:21
To all my fellow loss mamas out there, I want you to know I see you, I feel your
To all my fellow loss mamas out there, I want you to know I see you, I feel your pain, I hurt with you. I also wanted to share how much this devotional book gifted by a sweet friend helped me during my roughest days so if you find yourself struggling through your grief (trust me, I’m still there) this is a must read.❤️📚👼🏻 . . #BrooksJosephHarris#infantloss#miscarriage#readabook#devotional#loss#grief#infantlossawareness#1in4#iam1in4#angelbaby#stillborn#hydrops#fetalakinesia#fetalhydrops#parentsofanangel#mommyofanangel#childloss#grieving#infantlosssupport#bookrecommendation#miscarriagesupport#youarenotalone#lossmama#grievingmother#pregnancyloss#pregnancylossawareness
14.01.2019 22:29:54
So much has changed in past 10 years, but's its so much more than my appearance.
So much has changed in past 10 years, but's its so much more than my appearance. I changed my hair, improved my makeup skills, lost 10-15 lbs, fixed my brows, and learned better self-tanning techniques, but most important I gained a sense of self-confidence and learned to honor my value. ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ 10 years ago, I was unsure of who I was, uncomfortable in my skin and constantly seeking approval and validation. It took losing so much, to find myself. Breast cancer, hair loss, 7 surgeries and 2 child losses brought me to a place where I am more sure of my self than ever before. I feel fulfilled, aware, passionate and worthy ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ How have you changed and what have you gained over the last 10 years? #10yearchallenge . . . . . . #miscarriage#childloss#fertilitystruggles#ivfjourney#TTCaftermiscarriage#lifeafterchildloss#pregnancyloss#fashionblogger#styleblogger#raleighblogger#ncblogger#styleinfluencer#stylecollective#fashionblogger#caryblogger#lifestyleblogger#raleighinfluencer#innerconfidence#bloggerbabes#breastcancer#findyourtribe#cancerthriver#breastcancersurvivor#vulnerability#beyourself#insecurity#selfconfidence#authenticity#aginggracefully
14.01.2019 22:15:15
These aren’t all the pills I take every day, but they are the most stigmatized (
These aren’t all the pills I take every day, but they are the most stigmatized (Cymbalta and Xanax). I don’t think anyone would judge me for taking meds for my autoimmune disease or my daily multivitamins, but when it comes to treating my anxiety and PTSD, the perspective seems to shift. Trauma has been proven to damage and re-wire the brain, so it seems bizarre that our culture critiques those who take medication for mental illness. Treatments such as medication and therapy help, and there should never be shame attached to self-care. If you are struggling, please talk to your doctor about ways to ease your symptoms and what treatments may be best for your personal case. Don’t let the judgmental mentality of others keep you from progress and betterment of your daily life. 💛
14.01.2019 22:08:04
Haha I wasn’t going to post the video of my super awkwardness, but why not? 🤷🏻‍♀
Haha I wasn’t going to post the video of my super awkwardness, but why not? 🤷🏻‍♀️ ... I love this body. It rocked that workout. 💪🏻 Endometriosis can’t stop me. Grief can’t stop me. I am unstoppable. 🤩 ... Who wants to transform with me?🤩 ... ... ... ... ... ... #transform20#loveyourbody#6weekchallenge#endometriosis#childloss#stillbirth#unstoppable#strong#healthylife#fitover30#spokane
14.01.2019 21:52:44
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