Cassandra (@dressagenerdcass) — Former US Marine living in Denmark. Im a dressage rider, own an ottb. I enjoy physics, biology, neuroscience, psychology, philosophy&open discussion
I was thinking about perception and biases today and how much biases are built off of an individuals insecurity. People tend to perceive those they feel threatened by in a negative fashion, we are all guilty of this. Our biases distort reality. Note reality is what is without a description, it is what exists and is before our biases and perceptions intervene. Plato's cave is also a good thought. I also know from what people have perceived of me before actually meeting and speaking with me. I'm not a doll or a fool, nor am I weak or expect the world delivered at my feet for nothing. I dont look like I can take care of myself or like my IQ is over 140. I don't look like a US Marine and I don't look like I have strength of character, resilience or grit. Perception isnt reality and appearances dont tell the whole story. Perceptions and judgements are biases held by the assessor.
My little one, Miss Alma. She's really sweet and affectionate but hates snow. Im changing majors to cognitive science. I like observing and questioning what we think we know. I see it as many pieces of a puzzle that are always evolving. I like increasing my depth, dimension and awareness. I just want a more complete picture or understanding of the universe.I am also very passionate about physics for that reason. I enjoy it. I dont need to be better than anyone, I just enjoy learning.
Wonder (off the track thoroughbred) from last weekend. He's coming around. Still himself, challenges me every single day. Sometimes makes me want to rip my hair out or cry from frustration but you know what he is such a pleasure to work with, especially when he gets it and is so confident and self assured. He's an incredible team mate and probably the smartest horse I've ever worked with and one of the most powerful. To ride he feels like a surge of testosterone driven power and he will definitely fight and argue with expressive opinions but have him on your side and convince him and no horse will work harder for you. Very stallion-like to ride and work with.
Passion intimidates those who like their parameters. Who like their structure and rigid idea of how to be human and thrive. To be a flame, burning brightly scares those who cant ignite. To have a bold, fervorous spirit in the full spectrum and range of color is a harder existence but makes for a more meaningful life with more depth, dimension and layers.
Not sure what to say about 2018 but I am so thankful for the changes in my life and the hope I have for the future. The changes of 2018 will make for an even better 2019. The most important things we do begin every day in our thoughts which come into being through our words and actions which ultimately make up our character and become our destiny. It all begins in the little thoughts we have and the decisions we make, no matter how small and insignificant they may seem. It all builds and adds up. Photos are basically some of me cleaned up and classy, others me in my pjs without makeup being my authentic self. Either way I'm a very passionate and genuine person, I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and care too much when I shouldn't. It's been an effort to care less. Been willful and obstinate my whole life and very feisty and independent. I think what I've learned this year with moving to a new country is I cant do it all by myself. I need to ask for help and that's the hardest lesson I've learned this year. Being stubborn, feisty and independent is not a virtue. It's a vice, the sin of pride.
Wonder my horse of a lifetime. Disclaimer: everything is fine, nothing is wrong. Just reflecting. I ended up spending my evening in self reflection and thinking. I think way way too much. But this struck me. There is a misconception that we need to be happy all hours of the day but forget the importance of misery. The darkness makes us appreciate the light. It enlightens us and makes us wise, if we choose to apply the experience that way. I am more complete because of suffering. Sometimes the pain surfaces and it isnt cause for alarm. I dont need to be fixed. But society has an unhealthy relationship with any emotions that arent joy and to me that makes for a very shallow experience of being human. To truly live and appreciate life in its completeness means embracing the suffering, as well as the joy. The pain creates depth and dimension and the joy serves as a reminder that life is worth living through all the ups and downs and to not forget there are good days too.
Wonder from tonight. God Jul fra Danmark!! Tried to ride in the saddle, never again. He just reared, bucked, leaped in the air over and over and bolted. NO brakes. Couldnt ride straight. So sad. I love the saddle but it causes him pain, so bareback we are until can afford a treeless saddle.
Merry Christmas from Wonder and I. Im so grateful to be spending Christmas with Wonder this year. Wonder is the reason I ended up in Denmark at all. Purchasing Wonder led me to connections that brought me to Denmark, hes changed my life in so many fantastic ways. I am a much happier person than I've ever been. I have a much healthier outlook on life and I'm a lot less bitter and cynical. I truly believe everything happens for a reason, I do not believe in coincidences. I believe whoever comes into our lives comes with a purpose. Good or bad, the experiences we have are necessary for growth and enlightenment which I hope continue indefinitely. This horse is the catalyst to everything that has happened to me over the past year. Dont know if I can get him Christmas present worthy of what he means to me but I pay for his life and give him massages 3x a week, so he cant complain 😂
I havent posted anything about Alma in a while. Alma is the sweetest cat, she never bites or scratches. Loves belly scratches and cuddles. She is very shy, polite, and affectionate and sits by me as I read painfully boring lecture slide after painfully boring lecture slide and calculate equations. I HATE accounting, I really really do. My brain prefers the sciences. My brain wants to wander and explore new ideas, think about the improbable and ask questions.But we do this because sometimes we just have to do the stuff we hate that makes us miserable because that's life. But this too shall pass. Only temporary misery.
We cant wait to have a saddle again. My goal is to have a saddle again to get off of his back. He's my favorite horse I've ever known. He is very very hot, over eager and often he is a very intense and tense sort of horse but he loves his job. You can feel it in him, even though the work is hard and he asks questions and challenges. When he gets it he's so automatic and is so eager to do it. He wants to do it all at once, so a lot of times whe I feel his intensity I have to say enough play time. We are done. Some days he is very testy and it's all here is the line and then he is happy but once you break through it, there isn't a horse alive I'd rather sit on.
Wonder the off the track thoroughbred. He's still a challenge and sometimes makes me want to cry but he's my boy. We have good and bad moments but hes my boy. He is probably the smartest horse I have ever ridden and by far the most determined. He is a very intense, very powerful horse with a mind of his own but a heart of gold. Never met a horse like him.
Another fabulous weekend in Copenhagen with my happy place 😘 such a fabulous early holiday. You balance me and make me feel harmony in a world of chaos. Expressing feelings isnt a strength of mine but with you its understood and doesnt require an explanation. You're special 😃🤓 I feel so lucky to have you in my life.
Wonder horse. I know I look like hell but Wonder is perfect. Some days I am SO SO glad I brought him with me. Had a few people tell me I was crazy for taking an off the track thoroughbred to Denmark when I could buy a flashier, fancier and easier horse for the cost it took to import him but that horse wouldnt be Wonder. He is really special. I've ridden hundreds of horses and worked with countless. Wonder is different from every horse I have ever met. I loved all my horses but Wonder is the only one that just fit. He's my horse of a lifetime. My heart horse (horsey soul mate). He's quite a challenging horse but among the smartest I've ever met.