Cassy Crabtree (@cassanovabb) — Danielle made me an Instagram.
It's your birthday and you can cry in Gringos if you want to 💖 • Let me tell you about one of my favourite memories of this girl (I will never run out of stories to tell but here we are). When we used to be two single insane girls living in Vancouver we had a system of fake names and alter egos; I was Abigail because once I introduced myself to a guy as Cassy and when the conversation ended he said “nice to meet you Abigail” and hers was Liz because... well it’s easy to remember when you’re drunk. • The system was simple: if we used our fake names to introduce the other then the guy was no good. • One night we were out at one of our favourite dive bars and I walked over to see how she was faring with a boy I didn’t think was good enough (as per usual because no one is good enough for her). I walked up to the conversation that was going something like this: “I love that place, they call me crying Lindsay!” “What? I thought your name was Abigail?” “Oh yeah... it is” “Then why do they call you Lindsay?” “They just do ok!!!” • Needless to say it wasn’t true love.... but makes for one hell of a story. I hope you have so much fun today that you use a fake-fake name. Here’s to another decade of adventures, because, let’s be honest... we will never stop our bullshit 💖
A new hope ✨ • I’ve had a picture of this church as my computer background for over a year now. Today I saw it in person. • Truthfully I’m not even sure how I found this magical little island but I am so grateful that everything lined up perfectly to give me the experience that I had. The locals here were confused as to why I came in February since it’s SO off season. But had I not come this time I wouldn’t have had accommodations to myself, I wouldn’t have had the freedom to get pictures without a single person blocking my shot, and I wouldn’t have had the experiences with the people I met because they would have been busy with their lives in the summer. • This trip was everything I needed and even more. I wish I could elaborate more on it but I think I’m going to keep some of the magic for myself. Just know that I will absolutely be back and that if you open yourself up to the universe it will throw some pretty incredible places, people, and experiences your way. Tack, Åland 🇦🇽
The best birthday hike ✨ • I am blown away by this birthday. It’s honestly been perfect in every single way. Thank you to everyone who took time out of their day today (and even just this trip in general) to make me feel like I have my own special place in your lives and this universe. Sometimes it’s easy to forget how good we have things, so keep reaching out to everyone who inspires you and keep giving compliments and affirmations to those who you care about. Thank you to the people I’ve met here in Åland who have made me feel welcomed and like we were always destined to be friends. And thank you for the universe to always gifting me with the best sunsets on my birthday. Here’s to making this the best year yet with all of you supporting me; especially for those who are far away. In the words of my new mantra for this year..... let’s fucking goooooooo 🙃
Sunrise 🌅 Well since I have some time to kill while I wait for my ferry to arrive I thought I would talk about budget airlines! • One of the things I get asked the most is “how can you afford to travel and pricier activities while traveling?” And the answer is quite simple: I am so cheap when it comes to flights and transportation and that frees up a huge portion of my travel budget. • Budget airlines in Europe are especially great for this, however it does come with some major inconveniences. Here are some tips to get the most of your budget airline experience! • make sure you ALWAYS print your ticket. Seriously. Most budget airlines will charge you 40€ and up if you do not have your ticket. So use that 10 cents and 20 minute trip to the print shop and get it done • Purchase cabin luggage!! Again, most budget airlines do not allow a carry on suitcase unless it’s very tiny. So splurge the extra 10 whatevers. It’s still cheaper to pay for luggage with budget airlines than flying with most other airlines. •Take the inconvenient flights later at night or early in the morning (I prefer early since you gain a whole day), it may be a pain in the ass but you can easily see a HUGE price reduction when not traveling during peak times. You can sleep when you’re dead right?? • though it may sometimes be inconvenient, the amount of money you save can be put to better use during your travels (which I will talk about this week!)
Grief Counselling • Something that I’ve had to come to terms with the last two weeks is that as much as you can try to consciously and healthily control your grief through supportive external environments, suppressing complicated emotions can make even pleasant situations turn into a place of grief. And that’s okay. • Last week I had to make a hard decision: not flying back to Canada to process the loss of a family member with those who were hurting the most. I ultimately decided that going home for the two weeks would not make a difference in the grand scheme of this loss, since my family has an endless supply of members to support each other through this situation. I told myself that the jet lag, the added external factors, and my already deteriorating mental state would be a perfect combination to backtrack all of the progress that I’ve been making for my new life in the UK. So I decided to go back to Germany during my time off instead. • I thought I was coping well through having to simultaneously process my grief and looming deadlines. I had moulded my external environment to the best of my abilities; the perfect combination of self care and appropriate distractions. I wasn’t in denial and I didn’t regret my decision for not coming home. I actually got so comfortable and proud with the way that I was processing things that I let my emotional guard down. Which for me is extremely symptomatic. • Progress with mental health symptoms is almost impossible to quantify, as much as my research would love to prove otherwise. You can do absolutely everything right for yourself and still have an onset of symptoms because you’re handling things TOO well. Dissociating have lead to some of my clearest moments. And being happy and comfortable have lead me to some of my darkest corners of my mind. • There are no right or wrong choices, because any choice has an infinite number of outcomes that have no way of being calculated. It’s only in the way that we react and welcome choices into our lives that we can get the illusion of control. We will survive all situations in our life except one. And sometimes I’m terrified of not knowing where my line will be drawn.