4 years. It wasn’t always easy. In fact it wasn’t ever easy. But the last 4 years didn’t just test me academically but also offered me valuable life lessons both in and out of uni. Meaningful friendships. Strong morals. A forced slide from introvert to borderline extrovert (idk 🤷🏽♂️😂). And a piece of paper along with some pics at the end of the chapter to show it all off. FOCUS IS COMPLETED GUYS! 🕺🏽 One chapter to go until the introductory chapters end and life hits full speed. 🙏🏽 Alhamdulillah for everything.
. they notice it at work managers and colleagues clueless as to the dull faces the once energetic now drained enthusiasm filled the room but bleakness now emits acting was a skill necessity was the school a need to protect self from others and others from self the smiles and facades no longer work they see right though it through eyes they see your hurt the tiredness no life within yet sleep is hard to come by when the mind ceases rest a wilderness within exploring emotions not good for the soul anxiety, sadness, hopeless a return to happier times there’s not any hope left noticeable - ar 📸 @shxf_shvfflx
. Effort, ‘A vigorous or determined attempt.’ Sometimes too vigorous, That only bad comes from it. So vigorous, That only pain is known of it. A determination that is misplaced, Can consequent distaste- For something once so valued Valued only by one. . Endeavour, ‘Try hard to do or achieve something.’ And try hard you may A softer approach. Less the hurt, And the bitterness of effort. Achieving a goal only brings contentment. Hurts feel fulfilled, It was all worth it. . Whatever level of undertaking, End of the day, You can say- At least I tried. . Effort or endeavour? - a.r
. memories of past only shared with those most important individuals who uplift you at your lowest break a back with your sorrows and pains pertinent to living life seeing through those bleak days sleepless nights. alone is a worry scares of a future unclear without each other unimaginable one without another yet regular conversations become sporadic checkups at least there’s still something which allows us to care I guess that’s all you got when you go from living reality of a dream only chasing shadows is the only reality the dream remains only as a happy thought a glimmer of what may not what was is or will just something for the soul to latch onto in moments when shadows aren’t company enough. . chasing shadows - ar
Some people seem very grounded in life but in reality their soul may be on a turbulent journey. A quiet smile outside while the stresses of life make noise as they collide with one another within. You’ll never know the true person and what they’re feeling, not ever.
Moist o clock 🤧 . Do you still think about us? Do you have the same thoughts I do? Thoughts of happier days. A time where it was only us, And nothing more was needed. Or are those thoughts entombed in a fortress of your forgotten memories? A place you wish to never visit, Chambers that will never open again. . Because I still remember the rays of sun that shun at us as we walked, The cold wind hitting our faces, The gentle flow of the water beneath the bridge where we would spend ages. It all comes back to me every time, The memories shared in our favourite places. . Remembering the smiles on your face, I grin to myself as I sit where we sat. Watching the kids play, the birds fly, And the trees change as the seasons go by. I used to wait for you here. I still wait. Memories of you keep me company. . But do you remember how we were? Will you ever come by and smile, Seeing me still sat here.. Will you come and say hi? Or will I forever be left with only memories Ones you’ve locked away and left to hide. . Letter to a someone 🤔 #shotoniphone
. I promised myself To never try again, To block the flow From this unbearable pain . I’ll keep it together, I owe myself that blissful peace, away from the mindspinning games for my creased heart to find its beat . I will be happier although nothing seems the care attached to your hollow glare connected by glass eyes, as they stare. . Pleading boy, I am emotionless Yet can’t find this comfortable state. Laying in this tub, filled with tears Save me, it’s not too late? . I said I wouldn’t try, that I’ll find my own frame. Yet, here I am at your door “please let me in, let’s start again”. . - Don’t try - a.r x hh.m . . My first collab 🙀 but @hh.m__ is a master at this so I didn’t really need to do much 😄
. An unfamiliar feeling within Unusual, this summer heat The blinding sun breaking through Your scent that still fills the streets Long after you’ve gone . Your spirit still roams the alleys And your aura, absorbed by the walls That reflect your smile to passers by And sing your song all day long Until the sun has gone . The stars take over Painting a world of desire Carving our fate in the skies Bringing together souls Etching memories into dreams . Clouds start overpowering the canvas Like thoughts rush at the 25th hour Laying waste to happiness within And when the storm subsides The memories are now just dreams . No one said dreams can’t come true I guess it’s up to me to come and chase you And chase you I shall Chasing memories, me and you These streets will share out fragrance Upon your return. . Memories - a.r . #instagood#words#emotions#igerslondon#photogrpahy#uk#Birmingham#bham#igersbirmingham#birminghamgram#picoftheday#city#igers#instamood#street#urban#feelings#uplift#lensconnect#sun#bluesky#rotunda#bullring
. I sit at the edge of the quay where once the water reflected two, now, I only see one, staring back at me, drowning, unable to cope with all that’s happening in the surrounding, from the tumbling towers of hope to the things the people spoke, it all got a little blinding. . You colonised my head, took control of the beat of my aching heart. A fortress against feelings I once was, but for you, taking it all down was not hard. . Like India and the east built the wharf, you took me to war, and left me behind, a ruin. Took with you the spoils, Leaving behind holes in this crumbling being. But like the wharf, in my ruin I shall build myself again, shiny and new, my walls are back up, higher, tougher, only accessible to a few. . I can’t even see my reflection anymore. I sit on the edge looking no longer at a broken soul, but gaze into the water and find looking back at me, a tall structure built by you, you made me whole. . No longer do I have any holes. . Holes to whole - a.r . #instagood#words#igerslondon#photogrpahy#uk#london#canarywharf#rooftop#picoftheday#city#igers#instamood#street#urban#feelings#uplift#lensconnect
My current dilemma is I cannot finish this row and I cba going out shooting something.. soo, seeing as tho it’s past 12 on a working night, let’s just leave a portrait of me here while most normal people sleep 😂 . Throwbackkkkk courtesy of @max_vision_art 😊 . #portrait#gameoftones#igers#lensconnect#offcentr#photography#birmingham#glasses#lights#neon#bokeh#pursuitofportraits#portraitgames#vscoportrait#moodyports#humanedge#canonphotos#artofvisuals#nights#portraitphotography
The universe is made up of light and darkness. The light fills the darkness and makes it bright. The dark place is now lit yet the person remains dark inside. Drowned in sorrow, rage, regret and self hate. A body now closed of to warm emotions and tenderness. No light pierces through a soul which is but a void from feeling. A black hole deep within where no light can put out its darkness. The world around us is lit but the light fails to illuminate us within. . Eliminate Darkness - a.r . #words#poem#bhamnights#custardfactory#gameoftones#igers#lensconnect#offcentr#photography#birmingham#bhamgram#igersbham#lights#city#citynights#humanedge#canonphotos#artofvisuals#nights
• Their pull will be heavier than gravity itself, But your soul is capable of floating higher than the skies. . They will load your thoughts with worthlessness and your heart with self hate, Feed it to your wings and take flight, for it is fuel to fly higher, not unnecessary weight. . . Heaviness, A.R 😌